Psalm 27

Today has been one of those days that I wish I could redo.
From the moment I fell back asleep on purpose to the hour I somehow lost and missed that meeting, I've been frustrated with myself. And, from when I misplaced my purse to when I wasted time friend-stalking on Facebook, I think that I did pretty much everything wrong. At this point, I want to quit and move somewhere around people who love me and will hug me when I feel this awful.

"The one thing I ask of the Lord—
the thing I seek most—
is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
delighting in the Lord’s perfections
and meditating in his Temple.
For he will conceal me there when troubles come;
he will hide me in his sanctuary.
He will place me out of reach on a high rock.
Then I will hold my head high
above my enemies who surround me.
At his sanctuary I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy,
singing and praising the Lord with music.
Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
Be merciful and answer me!
My heart has heard you say, 'Come and talk with me.'
      And my heart responds, 'Lord, I am coming.' "
Psalm 27:4-8

Rereading this gives me a pretty great perspective. David wasn't perfect, either. I KNOW he had days where he wished for a second try. But, he takes his delight in the LORD's perfections. And, David wants to be where God is. In my head, I know that I need God more than my friends. In my heart, I obviously don't always believe that. If I did, I wouldn't be so disheartened that they aren't here or aren't bending over backwards to contact me constantly.

"Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord."
Psalm 27:14

This theme of waiting while God does the work isn't going to leave. Today was a wonderful example of that. God is the only one who can fix my flaws (and there are MANY). And, when he does, its going to be in a way that will make people stand in awe of his power and creativity. I don't know how that will look, but I know that it will take time.

God, give me the courage and fortitude to wait for You.